This past month has brought a lot of different things into my life, and even if I have not written daily here my gratitude and thankfulness I have worked into a mindset of being thankful each night before I fall asleep. Finding gratitude helps cultivate joy, which, on nights such as tonight, are important. Today I find myself thankful for the old friendships, the new friendships, family, and the community that I am creating. I am thankful for the small returns to normalcy including a Thanksgiving race and Thanksgiving dinner with extended family.
Mostly tonight I find myself thankful for a lesson I didn't want. A lesson in trust and expectations was taught, a simple reminder that my path is different than the rest. A lesson in trusting the process and accepting what is and will not be. It was a reminder that I had been praying for peaceful acceptance of the opposite of the expectation of tonight, thus I should not be surprised at the outcome, or lack thereof. I know I'm being extraordinarily vague in the lesson and situation, yet I am sure you all can relate to the experience of praying for one thing, expecting something different, and still finding yourself upset by the situation when it aligns more with the prayers than the expectation. A lesson that will carry well into the holiday season. Thank you for the gift.
